Today I cleaned my room and the kitchen. I was quite thorough considering I was doing it all for the heck of it. I guess after it was all done, I felt satisfied and no longer felt guilty lying in my bed (layers of corrugated carton covered with a blanket) and doing............nothing.

I don't want to spend money. I vowed not to spend on luxuries until we started earning real dough here. And its not happening yet. Just auditions. Endless auditions.

We'll get lucky. I'm quite confident. Although every mealtime when I stare at my spartan meal, I can't avoid doubting our chances.

We'll see this through. We can't quit too easily. We've gone too far for that.

I need to sleep.